09-04-2017, 04:43 PM
The Doors, do you live in my catchment area LOL! where I live you have to be really really in a bad state to get treatment.
MAD MAX, thank you for thinking about me and asking.
Today has not been so bad, I managed to have a bath as I am going out later, so I am dressed with hair and make up done, I even managed to get my eyebrow waxed, this sounds superficial but things like keeping my eyebrows in shape does help me.
What I want to ask is just how normal is it for people to have to coax themselves to brush teeth/hair shower leave the house to pick up milk etc.
I can recall the days when I just did those things on an automatic basis.
When I go back to the doctor I want to go there informed. I am not suicidal but I do think I need support to get my life back on track, I feel ashamed of myself a lot of the time. and it is this SHAME that forces me to things rather than automatically doing it.
So do " Normal" people, shower, eat well, clean house etc automatically or do they have to coax themselves or are compelled by an outside force? e,g having a cat means I have to take care of her and go to the shops for food, feed her etc. sticking to hobbies I no longer get much joy from means I take a bath and put on make up etc.
Some people buy clothes in a smaller size to motivate themselves to lose weight.
I buy nice clothes to motivate myself to make sure I go out and have a chance to use the clothes.
my internal dialogue is overwhelmed with my having to force myself to do basic self care,
from the outside it looks like I am doing OK, as I never show myself when I am in a state.
I worry that the short episodes of deep depression when I don't wash etc, will head to to longer states.
in short I just don't think it is normal for me to have to force myself to take care of myself.
I don't want to be fobbed off by my GP, if he says something like, " everybody has to will themselves to get out of bed , or everyone wants to have an extra hour in bed"
I hope this post makes sense?
MAD MAX, thank you for thinking about me and asking.
Today has not been so bad, I managed to have a bath as I am going out later, so I am dressed with hair and make up done, I even managed to get my eyebrow waxed, this sounds superficial but things like keeping my eyebrows in shape does help me.
What I want to ask is just how normal is it for people to have to coax themselves to brush teeth/hair shower leave the house to pick up milk etc.
I can recall the days when I just did those things on an automatic basis.
When I go back to the doctor I want to go there informed. I am not suicidal but I do think I need support to get my life back on track, I feel ashamed of myself a lot of the time. and it is this SHAME that forces me to things rather than automatically doing it.
So do " Normal" people, shower, eat well, clean house etc automatically or do they have to coax themselves or are compelled by an outside force? e,g having a cat means I have to take care of her and go to the shops for food, feed her etc. sticking to hobbies I no longer get much joy from means I take a bath and put on make up etc.
Some people buy clothes in a smaller size to motivate themselves to lose weight.
I buy nice clothes to motivate myself to make sure I go out and have a chance to use the clothes.
my internal dialogue is overwhelmed with my having to force myself to do basic self care,
from the outside it looks like I am doing OK, as I never show myself when I am in a state.
I worry that the short episodes of deep depression when I don't wash etc, will head to to longer states.
in short I just don't think it is normal for me to have to force myself to take care of myself.
I don't want to be fobbed off by my GP, if he says something like, " everybody has to will themselves to get out of bed , or everyone wants to have an extra hour in bed"
I hope this post makes sense?