09-09-2018, 06:09 AM
Thanks Izzy, Quickfix and Chicci for your words of support. Today I woke up with a new sense of clarity and can think rationally for once- I guess getting it off my chest really helped.
Today I found every pill in my house and counted them all (in the hundreds all up). Mostly clon and vals, a few xans too. I flushed the xans because they always cause problems. At the moment, as I said I've only been taking at night about 2mg clon and maybe 10mg val at the most. I am considering giving most of them to my brother to hold on to (I know he will support me if I tell him).
I looked into the ashton manual and I think it is doable/ modifiable with what I already have on hand- start tapering with the clon and then move onto the diaz due to its (slightly) longer half life.
Tomorrow I am going to start looking for support groups or counsellors to help me through this. I've been through this before, but only ever alone. Feeling positive.
Today I found every pill in my house and counted them all (in the hundreds all up). Mostly clon and vals, a few xans too. I flushed the xans because they always cause problems. At the moment, as I said I've only been taking at night about 2mg clon and maybe 10mg val at the most. I am considering giving most of them to my brother to hold on to (I know he will support me if I tell him).
I looked into the ashton manual and I think it is doable/ modifiable with what I already have on hand- start tapering with the clon and then move onto the diaz due to its (slightly) longer half life.
Tomorrow I am going to start looking for support groups or counsellors to help me through this. I've been through this before, but only ever alone. Feeling positive.